My Intonation Problems

So I was playing violin at Fellowship again this morning. I have to admit, I love it! It is so encouraging to get up there every week and know that I have my own place and I play my own part. It is a great picture of the Church in general. We are all playing a symphony and we all have our own parts. Individually we can play beautiful notes, but as a Body we turn those notes into music!

Usually when they let me know I will be playing the next weekend, I like to bathe that weekend in prayer. It is easy to get obsessed with the gift God has blessed me with. Equally dangerous is my tendency to get overly wrapped up in my own part, not listening and harmonizing with everyone else's instruments. I have learned that I must always prepare my heart and ask God to give me the strength to make it through each service and allow me to coherently play the music. Simply put, I am worshiping in a role of leadership and that is never something to be taken lightly or attempt on my own! If I attempt to take such a burden on myself, I am wrong and I will fail!

With all of that said, I have to admit...I was terrible this morning! Something was not right in my heart and it came out in my playing. At one point I even played a wrong note. It sounded awful! It was off-pitch...much like my heart! I guess thats what was encouraging though...I want my worship and ministry to be so deeply entrenched in my wandering heart that I must rely on the God who has called me out. I cant do this on my own! My mistakes this morning outlined where I fall short and it was so great to know that my God is the one pushing me along! It is the Holy Spirit's ministry of conviction and it was definitely a humbling experience.

"My prayer is that my public passion for Christ will never exceed my private passion for Him." - Beth Moore